And yet

I have thought it fatal to let go
And yet it has proven even more excruciating to have held on
I have thought it wise to let my heart show
And yet it has been stared at, rejected, ignored 'til it's faded to nothing
Everyday, I yearn for something more
And yet I see that circumstances become more unbearable
I feel the pain grip my heart from it surface down to its shadows
And yet I have chosen to remain and to stay
I have no idea where I am placed and where I should stand
And yet I have willed myself to fight on
I know I have chosen and have made a decision
And yet I always wonder if it's the best thing, if it's worth anything...