Seriously

There are times really when things happens and you just wanta say ____ all like all these are really crazy and you just wanta let life’s ongoings end in a click like the streets are dashing before you instead of you in them, like you have so many things happening and you don’t have an idea where all these things are going, and you are waiting for someone to turn up and just appear in front of you but that someone won’t appear, and that someone asked you to stay up with them, but turns out that someone is already hanging out with other people. Crazy stuff happen like when you just ask someone something that someone borrowed from you and it’s just gonna be like you’re the one who’s being done the favor for, I mean what! You unappreciative person. I like the word defective—you defective! Anyway, and then you’re gonna wait for someone to tell you howta do things because you’re as clueless as a newborn, and you can’t start because that someone won’t tell you how and you’re gonna be like “Is that so hard?” when the matter’s not really difficult at all. And you know that you're only gonna be able to do that unless that someone tells you how and you feel like you're the only one who is really concerned 'bout getting the work done, like this is all crazy. 

Imagine being stuck with a series of to-do's and you just don't know how to fit all of it in your time. It is really very difficult. Shoot 'em all, you wanna do but 'fcourse you can't! Hello, you can't. Just tease them all in your head that's what you're gonna do because it's all you can do like it's the only doable thing in the world. And then, you're ranting like this but you don't want anyone to see that you're ranting this violently on your laptop but then someone would suddenly see you and then you'll be in secret panic to transfer the "tab" you're on. Like being in college will allow you to live. And like you have so much to do but then you can't do anything OR you're not really doing anything at all. And then, someone would pop into your mind again, and you'll want that someone to just suddenly appear but then you don't wanta, because it'd be for nothing. It is useless and senseless, and that you just dismiss these stupid thoughts, and tell yourself that you're better off by yourself, dreamy, and wanting to go to places. And then, yer gonna realize that all these are just er. Anyway, I'm just saying.